-Seven word story
I’m really glad I don’t have feelings for anybody right now. That shit gets too complicated, having to deal with all those feelings and stuff. & Then trying to figure out whether or not if the other person likes you. Honestly, at least for me that whole having a crush on someone is so annoying sometimes. It’s the worse feeling having to see the person you like has feelings for someone else or what not. & then dealing with the mixed signals ugh. It’s like if you like me just tell me already and stop playing games. So yeah I’m glad I don’t have to deal with that, it’s just too much. I don’t bother with chasing anyone. If someone wants me in their life it will naturally happen and I know I wouldn’t have to question it. The right person will come at the right time for me.
Until then, I am focusing on making myself a stronger person and being happy on my own is good, too young to be stressing over someone.
God always knows when to put the right things in my life at the right time.. I’ve seen it before. He also knows when to take out any negative thing that is toxic or hurts me spiritually. So I’m thankful for that, I just have to learn when to close doors and trust Gods timing instead of trying to keep them open.
Beyonce is the cure to anything.
couldn’t be happier right now, its like is a weight has been lifted off of me. No longer have to deal with this anymore. Im onto a new chapter of my life and Im glad Im not going down that wrong path. I feel great. Thank you Lord for doing this for me and putting me through that struggle. Setting me free just to be happier. I now understand why this happened. I trust in your plan for me Lord, I’m looking forward to these beautiful life changes that will come my way. :-)
The text posts I write on here are NOT about my personal life or anyone in my personal life, they are just writings I enjoy to write. I am no longer putting my writings on here cause there’s people I know from school that follow me and I’m tired of them asking me who the writings are about and if its from my personal life when its about nothing related or specific to my life. There’s no reason to even be asking.
trying so hard to become a better person.
Yesterday I realized how fast things were changing in my life… not just with myself, but with everyone around it as well. Everyone I know is growing up, being in my last year of high school I wonder how things are going to be after I graduate, will everyone still stick around?
That’s one of my fears to see the people I’m so close to right now end up drifting away cause college most times brings a new life.
Yes, I am looking forward to how things are going to be after I graduate, but I still have a fear in the back of my mind of new things coming into my life in the next couple of months. I guess its fear of “the unknown”…
People tell me to adjust to them, but its easier said than done.
Hopefully its all good things to come and good people to stay and others to come.
How much more can I take? I don’t deserve any of this. I keep pretending like everything is okay because I don’t want to face the truth. This is exactly why I don’t get close to people. I don’t like putting my emotions invested in people. They pull you close and then once they get bored with you they make you chase them. They don’t care, they only care about themselves. I refuse to even cry anymore. I’m so tired of crying, I find crying as being weak within myself and I refuse to. After today I will make sure that I change. No more feeling like I’m not worth it to you. I am fucking worth it and I’m not gonna let anyone make me feel like that anymore.